i think that i will scream if i lose another tear
\n\u2018cause it seems my brain is leaking quite slowly out my ear.
\nand i\u2019m certain nothing\u2019s wrong, though i wouldn\u2019t say it\u2019s right,
\nsee it\u2019s dark inside my mind and i cannot reach the light.<\/p>\n
i\u2019m tripping on the laces of someone else\u2019s shoes
\nand i know that i should, fall but i feel i must refuse.
\ni don\u2019t want to be the girl staring vaguely at the ground,
\nhair covering her face and she never makes a sound.<\/p>\n
see, i\u2019ve been that girl before and she got on my last nerve.
\nshe was racing towards a cliff and refused to slow or swerve.
\ni could swear that i am stronger now,
\nhell, i could swear \u2018till sailors blush,
\nso you see you\u2019ve got the wrong girl, i\u2019m too brave to turn to dust.<\/p>\n
i have lived in the reflection of a thousand sleepless days
\nand i cannot change direction to a spiraled down decay.
\ni have tried to get a jump-start, slammed my head against the floor,
\nand to free myself of typecast i\u2019ll break every fucking door.<\/p>\n
and i\u2019m not sure who i\u2019m fighting, though i\u2019m afraid it\u2019s only me,
\nbut i\u2019ve got to go on writing or i never will be free.
\ni\u2019d stay trapped inside my mind with my tangents and my rants,
\nand i\u2019d never leave my side so i\u2019d never have a chance.<\/p>\n
i will kick my little ass if that\u2019s what i have to do
\nto find out if i\u2019m tough enough to really follow through.
\ni\u2019ll take myself out back and i will really set me straight,
\n\u2018cause i know i have to do this, i can\u2019t leave it up to fate.<\/p>\n
i will write a good next line, if it takes me several days.
\nand i\u2019ll throw the biggest tantrum if i don\u2019t get my way.
\ni will say that i can\u2019t do it and then i\u2019ll prove me wrong.
\ni won\u2019t fold my hands politely \u2018till the last blank page is gone.<\/p>\n
and i will not be the nice one, not kind, demure and sweet.
\nif i stutter i will fight it, i will bite and kick and scream.
\ni\u2019ll write high-class graffiti if that\u2019s all i can achieve.
\ni\u2019ll write anything i have to, to be the writer i can be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
i think that i will scream if i lose another tear \u2018cause it seems my brain is leaking quite slowly out my ear. and i\u2019m certain nothing\u2019s wrong, though i wouldn\u2019t say it\u2019s right, see it\u2019s dark inside my mind and i cannot reach the light. i\u2019m tripping on the laces of someone else\u2019s shoes […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[41],"tags":[262],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=62"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=62"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=62"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.barbieangell.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=62"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}